Today was the loneliest day of my life.<\/p>\n
If you consider how old I am and where and how I’ve lived, you have to know that to have been the loneliest day of my life, I must have been pretty f*cking lonely today.<\/p>\n
I’ve been suffering some pain in my abdomen the past couple days.<\/p>\n
Today it was at it’s worst. \u00c2\u00a0I had to leave work around 3:30pm because it was so unbearable.<\/p>\n
I thought something was about to explode inside. \u00c2\u00a0Sharp pains and bloatedness.<\/p>\n
I raced home because I just didn’t know if I was going to pass out while driving on the highway on my way home or walking home from my parking garage.<\/p>\n
I raced home to be somewhere comfortable because if I dropped dead, it would be a long time until anyone that cared would know. \u00c2\u00a0I know it’s crazy thinking but I wanted to be in the comforts of my own home should anything happen to me. \u00c2\u00a0It’s completely morbid, but that is just how I think.<\/p>\n
That made me feel really lonely. \u00c2\u00a0I have no one.<\/p>\n
And what added to it was that I contemplated going to the hospital. \u00c2\u00a0Do I go alone? \u00c2\u00a0I barely felt like I could drive but who could really drive me? \u00c2\u00a0Everyone was at work. \u00c2\u00a0That would mean that I’d have to call someone to come get me and drive me to a hospital and have to endure 15-20 minutes more of blinding pain. \u00c2\u00a0I didn’t know if I could wait that long.<\/p>\n
And even if I wanted to go to the hospital, I don’t even know where it is!<\/em><\/p>\n HOW COULD I BE SO IRRESPONSIBLE?<\/p>\n Not only am I in pain, but I’m also hard on myself for not knowing where the hospital is after living here 4+ months.<\/p>\n Get with the program!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Today was the loneliest day of my life. If you consider how old I am and where and how I’ve lived, you have to know that to have been the loneliest day of my life, I must have been pretty f*cking lonely today. I’ve been suffering some pain in my abdomen the past couple days. […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-75","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.motebu.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/75","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.motebu.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.motebu.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.motebu.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.motebu.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=75"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/www.motebu.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/75\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.motebu.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=75"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.motebu.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=75"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.motebu.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=75"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}